Feb 3, 2024

It’s been 365 days of knowing you. I have Linda to thank for pushing me out of my comfort zone, and Ozzy/TMT for leading me to that party.

I have a lot of love in my life and I’ve never been afraid of being alone, so somewhere in between, I decided against the hustle of romantic love. I commited to a quiet, solitary life and forgot what sits on the other side of that hustle - accountability, growth and the wonder of growing up together.

The last time I saw my friend Remi she asked if I was still single, and after hearing my (probably dismissive) answer, she said “We know your type. You’ll fall in love now and we won’t hear word.” In my head, I thought “bet”, but well… I lost (gladly). I found Princess and now you won’t hear word.

I’ve always wanted to prove that my life is different. That I make my own fortunes. That I won’t be subject to the expectations of people. It felt like everyone was going one way - finding a partner, getting married, having kids and attempting to live happily forever after - as if that’s the only option. As if there isn’t overwhelming proof that lives are made of clay and no two molds are the same. So I wanted a different path. Or so I thought.

But, as Kahlil Gibran wrote, “think not that you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course”.

I can’t tell you exactly what changed. Many things changed. I changed. Not at once, but over days and weeks and months of having to look at myself and deal with the anxious boy terrified of things I can’t control. Over days and weeks and months of being loved fiercely and learning to love like that again.

Without a doubt, I want to be with Princess for the rest of my life. I’d have it no other way. I am no longer alone and it’s nothing to be ashamed of. And I’m going to fight even myself to make this work.

I love you, Princess. Let’s make a different life together.